Working from a cafe…

Nowadays, I like to work in a cafe as I feel more motivated when I’m surrounded by people although it can be noisy at time. But is ok as I can still focus. I’m pretty good at absorbing the noises and yet still able to concentrate on what I need to do. My brain is able to listen, observe, thank and write at the same time. Unbelievable right 😀?? Is true. I trained myself to multi-tasking when I was studying in university hence  I’m able to focus even if there are noises as long as no one is talking to me. Haha.

I love the energy that comes from other people. Some are really good and some aren’t so good so have to learn to filter and absorb the good and discard the bad. When I look at people I couldn’t help but wonder what type of life they have. As I get older, the search for the meaning of life isn’t important anymore because majority of us will never be able to find the meaning of life. All I care is to live a life that I can have the freedom to do whatever I want, basically live life at my own terms and conditions. I control my own life and destiny – that’s the key!

I’m working on a few interesting projects currently, but still in negotiation stage hence still a long way to enjoy the fruits. Sometimes I do questions if I’m on the right direction in my career. It ain’t easy when I have to start over again (in a way) as my focus this time around is in different segments of the real estate market. Hence I have to learn a fair bit of things from ground zero, but I don’t mind as it is fun. Just that it will takes time before the results can be seen. So not only have to be patient, but also a deep pocket because I don’t have income coming in during this stage therefore have to dig into my own savings 😅😅. Anyway, I’m still very motivated as I have a strong feeling that I will hit jackpot soon. And 2018 will be a fabulous year.

Anyway, coming back to why I prefer to work in a cafe. I wrote this post on a Tuesday afternoon, but didn’t get to finish it as I was distracted by meetings and dinners with friends hence only able to finish it tonight.

And in the interim, I saw this article Why You Can Focus in a Coffee Shop but Not in Your Open Office appeared on my FB’s timeline and I have to share it. The coincident was too uncanny. But definitely an interesting article to read. Hope you enjoy it. I did.

I’m looking forward to moving to our new office in December 2017. Is a co-working space and I have a feeling I will be going to office more often as the place is more vibrant, has a cafe inside and comfortable lounge areas too. But the best is I will get to meet new people  in co-working space environment. Excited 😀😀!! Viva 2018!! But in the meantime, cafe will still be where I’m going to get my work done when I don’t have meetings or appointments with clients. Hehe.


After 20 months…..

Finally, rented out my unit in Banyan Tree after 20 months of trying to sell. Allotted 1 year to sell and another 8 months to rent. There were a few offered for rental and almost concluded a deal in mid July, but it fell through when the couple from UK became uncompromising and demanding. They were willing to pay RM7k per month for fully furnished. I agreed to it and allocated RM5k to buy the furniture. The wife wanted to see the colours and etc so I sent her the pictures my biz partner took. It looks good to me. But the wife of the potential renter didn’t like the colours and wanted to choose the colours and again we agreed. I told them the budget and where we shopped so off they went to look for furniture they wanted.

And that was the caused of why the deal fell through. The wife complaint the mattress was too soft and wanted a harder one. And her request didn’t stop there. She wanted me to increase the budget to RM7k for her to buy the furniture she liked!! When the agent told me that I was really pissed off as I had stated clearly I didn’t want to furnish it as my intention is to sell the unit. Rental is just a temporary measure only. I told the agent to give them a choice – either take it without furnishing at RM6.5k or RM7.2k per month and she can get RM7k budget for the furniture. I was willing to compromise halfway if they are willing to do so. But they weren’t so the deal fell through.

There were 2-3 more potential offered, but in the end they chose other units as they are plenty of choices. I began to worry especially in the month of September as it was really quiet with no viewings of my unit at all. I went to temple to pray to ask for blessing to rent out my unit in October and I got it. Although the rental is only RM6k (I wanted RM6.5k lowest) and I still need to install the lightings and curtains, but the consolation is the tenant will pay 6 months rental advance. So at least I don’t need to worry about chasing for rental for 6 months and I can use the money to pay for the curtains and lightings instead of using my own money. I will be using the money to pay for the outstanding service charges + sinking fund too. Give me some breathing room in my bank account.

I’m aiming to sell the unit for RM2.9 to RM3mil or else it won’t justify my holding cost. I think if the market recovers I should be able to sell even higher. Well, at least I don’t need to worry for 1 year 1st and anything can change in a year. Who knows 😊?

Finally, 1 headache less although I still need to top up almost 45% every month to pay the loan instalment and service charge + sinking fund, but at least the bleeding is lesser. So is a good news! And the agent did a good job too. He was smart to convince the tenant to pay me 6 months advance rental as a catch for the low rent because if not I wouldn’t agree to it. Is a trade off and given the current market condition, isn’t too bad.

The last headache I needed to take care off is the shops I own in Ipoh. This property is burning a big hold in my bank account and almost bleeding me dry!! Really have to sell it asap. Will pray again and ask for blessing 😊! Haha.

At last…..I’m slowly tidying up loose ends in my life and getting rid of headache issues. Thank god!!



September lousy month

This month hasn’t been a lucky and favourable month for me. Too many of my deals, especially a big deal hits a snag simply because the Developer sings a different tune now compare to 1 month ago. Have been working on this deal since May 2017 and everything was going well and smoothly until end of August when it took on a different direction thanks to the sudden interests and involvement of the Chairman. Since May, we had been dealing with the Group CEO and he had given us not only his verbal agreement but also had asked his people to prepare the HOTs and and agreement for my client to sign.

On top of that, the Group CEO had also done up the show unit for my client to start selling. Seriously, it never crossed our mind that the deal will kaboom at this very late stage when my client has spent money on the marketing brochures and all the events are set to hit the market. Our last meeting with the Group CEO was very positive and fruitful. Really didn’t think the Chairman would suddenly get involved and took a strong interests in the project. The Chairman started talking to his friends about my client’s idea and the feedback he received from the friends prompted him to explore to use my client’s idea and concept and do it on his own. In short, the Chairman is thinking and planning to cut my client out of the picture so that they can maximise their profit from the property project!!

The Developer never thought of doing what my client wants to do until now. It really pissed me off that the Chairman of this PLC developer can be so unprofessional and unethical!! Now they told my client & I that they are reviewing various options on the table!! What a fucking joke!! They steal my client’s idea and concept and now they have the fucking balls to tell us that they have many options to consider and want to review all. They should have just honour their agreement with my client and not went out to solicit for more options when they are stealing my client’s idea and concept!!

Seriously, Malaysian Chinaman mentality and business practices are unethical and unprofessional. I will minimise my dealing with them in the future as I don’t want to be played out again by them. This developer antics made me dropped my glasses as it never crossed my mind that they will pull such a punch on us as they are reputable.

I’m pissed off with their antics, but not defeated. In fact, if anything I’m more determined to find a better location and deal for my client so that we can tell the Developer to fly kite before they officially inform my client. I will not be defeated. I believe there is always a silver lining among the dark clouds and I just need to work hard enough to find it.

I’m very confident that I will be able to find a better alternative for my client. It will set my timeline back by a few months, but it should be ok. I will not give up until I have exhausted all possible options. Definitely sucks to be put into such a precarious position, but nevertheless is part and parcel of the business world, especially my world. Swimming among sharks every single day. Majority of the time I met good and supportive clients. Only once a blue moon I will come across shitty unprofessional and unethical Developer.

Oh well, tomorrow is a brand new day. As long as the client is still with me, I will have a a 2nd chance to pull off the same deal with a different Developer. And I will continue to pitch and look for new clients. There are plenty of big fish in the sea. I just need to work hard and be patient to catch a few. Haha.

Ok, feel much better after pouring out my pissed off mood! Goodnite .

9 hours drinking on 12.7.17

I’m feeling lethargic from drinking 2 nights in a row on Wednesday and Thursday. Wednesday was the worst as I started drinking at 4.30pm until 1.30am. Had a 2pm meeting that ended at 3.30pm, lingered around for 30mins to chat with developer before parting way and headed to happy hour with my clients for pre-celebration drinks as we managed to come to the agreement on all terms stated in the collaboration agreement. Hence all of us decided to have a few drinks to celebrate, but I didn’t expect a few drinks to last until 1.30am. A particular client of mine he loves dancing and he wanted to go Zeta Bar and I agreed. It was just the 2 of us. There was a live band playing, but it was sucks. The women were practically shouting out instead of singing and it hurt my ears.

We ordered  Hendrix and we finished about 2/3 of it (well at least 3-4 glasses were wasted) between the 2 of us. Earlier, we had 2 bottles among 6 of us so the drinking weren’t too overly crazy. Drinking 9 hours were just plain crazy as it was longer than normal working hours!! It was really tiring. Anyway, I told my client that was the 1st and the last time. Hahaha. But I have a feeling it will happen again 🤣!




Closer to my goals

I’m working on an exciting deal that will yield me very substantial financial reward if the deal goes thru. Is getting closer, but I won’t know for sure if I have successfully pull off the deal until Sept/Oct this year. It will be a deal that will makes my competitors envious and garner me unnecessary attention. In my professional life, I prefer to be low profile as I don’t want my competitors to get wind of the deals I’m working on. But unfortunately, my blonde color hair it is hard to fly under the radar. Haha.

Beside, my industry is a very small market. Once you had built up a reputation and track record, other competitors will know who you are. And not sure fortunate or unfortunate for me, I have built up a good reputation for myself in the industry and hence people tend to be curious about what I’m doing and etc.

In fact, there are many people who remember or recognise me, but yet I don’t remember them especially those I don’t deal with often. I feel flattered when people came up to me and told me they know me and counted off to me some of the deals I had concluded successfully. I actually find it amusing too as I’m the type person who doesn’t gives a shit about my competitors and definitely don’t remember their name and achievements. I don’t envy the financial reward they earn because I know if I work hard and smart I will earn my own financial reward too. I make enough of money to sustain and maintain my own lifestyle and I’m happy and proud of myself. I don’t have everything as I always tell people, but I have things I want to have in my life which I bought with my own hard earned money. Except for a some gifts from dad and brother (watches, bags, diamonds).

Sure, I love to have someone I love present me with gifts, but I’m ok with buying things for myself and not wait until someone gets it for me. Anyway, praying hard for my deals.

Wish me luck 😄!


My Current State of Mind & Feeling

I was swarmed with work and re-building my life after the crushing heartbreak. Finally, I’m happy to share that I’m doing well in both departments 😁😁! Business opportunities are growing at a steady pace although all the big deals I’m working on currently are still work in progress, but at least I have a chance to close those deals. In fact, I have a pretty good and positive feeling that I might be able to pull off a few big deals in the next 6 months. I’m feeling euphoric that my hard work is slowly paying off. I have created a blue ocean for myself and company. Nothing beats the intense feeling of satisfaction that I get every time I looked back at how far I had come. It isn’t pay day yet, but the signs are very positive that I will hit jackpot in the next 6 months to 1 year. I just need to stay focus, motivated and continue to think creatively to develop more new clients and learn new things.

Not only I can feel the changes in me, I can see it clearly as well. Are they good changes or bad? Hmmmm……I guess it depends on each individual acceptance level. Personally, I think those changes were good for me as it were part of my growing up process. But to some people who have known me previously before the changes took place, they might not like the new me.

In the past, I always checked up on my friends and made sure they were well and fine. But now, I don’t do much of it. Mainly is because I don’t want to absorb any unnecessary negative energy. I usually shy away when I sense any negative vibes heading towards me. Last time, I absorbed a lot and even did my best to cheer my friends up by sharing my positive energy/vibes with them, which not only drained me but also made me worried about them. I realised now that I don’t want to be their sounding board anymore   as we are all adults hence we should deal with the drama in our life ourselves. I was always very giving until I my caring and giving nature were fully taken advantage of by underserving people, such as Peter Wittendorp and my crazy mum. Both of them used and took advantage of my compassionate nature repetitively and stabbed my in my heart. Seriously, they were a few parallels from both of them on how they used and treated me. Thank god I cut both of them out of my life for good. They couldn’t hurt me anymore!

I’m not sure I will be able to fully forgive them for what they did, said and treated me. I don’t break down and cry anymore as I had accepted the facts, but occasionally I felt a tinge of sadness when I recounted the stories to friends. Once a blue moon thing though. Recently I was shown a pic of my crazy mum and I didn’t even want to look at her face. And I’m definitely not interested to know about her current life!! I don’t want dramas and disturbance to be heaped on me again!

I had also looked at the pictures of  Peter Wittendorp just recently and what I saw was a stranger. The face that I used to love, the laughter that made me giddy and happy, the man that I thought was a good man and Mr Right for me was dead on April 18, 2016 when he did the unspeakable to me! I didn’t know then, but it was the night that he robbed my happiness, compassion and ability to trust people from me. It took me 1 year to recover, but I will never be able to trust people like I used to anymore. I used to take people words as trustworthy, but not anymore. Words need to be backed up by consistent  actions before I will accord my trust to them.

So now the man in the picture is a pathological liar, a hypocrite, a fakey and an asshole. I feel like a fool for falling for Peter Wittendorp, sucking in all his words and putting up with his shitty treatments and the emotional turmoil he put me through! Seriously, it was really ironic for a pathological liar (2 years) like him to throw accusation at me! What a fucking joke! To be honest, I don’t think I will ever be able to stop cursing him for what he did to me. I don’t know why, but every time when I wrote his name I feel the urge to cuss him and I will become 😤😤! I think I better stop or else I will make myself upset over an asshole!!

Anyway, overall I’m in a good place emotionally, mentally and physically. The upset feeling I had passed by quickly so it doesn’t affect me. Now my full attention are given to my business and getting my financial back in order so that my lifestyle will not be greatly affected by a temporary setback. That sums up my current state of mind and feeling.

Till the next post peeps!




Recognised and recognition

Last Thursday (17.11.16), I attended a networking event held by a Developer. I was introduced to this Developer by a mutual friend. I stayed for about 2 1/2 hours with my business partner. I didn’t socialise much as I don’t enjoy doing small talk with strangers and pass my name cards around. I prefer smaller group event because then conversation will be more fruitful and with substance. Anyway, I had my partner there so we took this opportunity to catch up on work as we don’t see each other often in the office.

We were introduced to a few people by my Developer’s friend and we made some small talk. Buffet was served and we grabbed some food to eat. After dinner, we continued to drink and sat there to chat with 1 of the new guy introduced to us.

As we were chatting away, suddenly I heard someone called my name and I turned to see who it was. It was a woman. Before I had a chance to say a word, she told me her name, Janet, and mentioned that she didn’t think I know her, but she knows who I’m. She said she was my ex-colleague at my ex-company where I first joined as a real estate agent. I was like ok. She went on to tell me that we joined in the same year (2001) and she can still remember me because there was 1 year I beat my ex-company top performer in sales and became No.1. Frankly, I vaguely remember. I asked her if she was sure since it was over a decade ago! She assured me and her partner who was also my ex-colleague (different branch) also confirmed what she told me. I asked them further how could they recognised me since it was over a decade ago. They said I still look the same! Haha. I take it as a compliment. It means I aged well 😀😜!

Janet also told me she actually tracked my movement for awhile! Eerie…..because she wasn’t the first person to tell me that. A few other people whom I don’t know and never met before know who I’m and they also told me they tracked my deals and movements. They could listed out some of the big deals I had done in the past. It was flattering to know that my competitors viewed me as a worthy opponent and a threat, but it is also worrying as in my line of work I need to be low profile because if not then there is a risk the deals I’m working on will be exposed before I close the deal.

There is nothing I can do to avoid being track because I’m known in the industry and people are curious about me. Beside, I don’t know them and even if I do I’m terrible at remembering faces especially if I met them briefly only. It is definitely a recognition to be recognised by my peers and competitors in the industry, but is also a curse because I don’t want my competitors to smell the deals I’m working on!! Anyway, it is unavoidable. I just have to be more careful and goes even lower profile than I’m now to safeguard my deals.

It is definitely a Catch 22 situation. Is nice to get the recognition, but it is also sucks to be recognised!! 😃😫